i am me

i just got back from a wedding dinner.

sigh..

'don't find a person you think you can live with for the rest of your life, find a person you cannot live without'

it was so nice.

took a lot of pictures. but all the ones with me in it turned out really ugly. dunno why. i guess it's not my day for looking good. which was quite a shame since i dressed up all nice nice and wanted to look good. i blame it on bad lighting and a bad face day. hmph...will post them all up on multiply soon.

so this was the dress i wore for the wedding dinner. tossed the morning dress into the wash so didn't get to take a pic of me in it. i'm still sitting here, in front of the computer. too lazy to change into my pyjamas. the groom said some very poignant things about his love for his bride. about how love isn't just a feeling, but it's also adjustment, commitment, tolerance and patience.

'love is when a person wakes up at 4 in the morning to make breakfast to prevent me from forgetting to eat the whole day when i'm busy'

'love is patiently waiting 2 hours for a facial and missing the finals of a footie game'

'love is when a person goes all out of the way to buy the other's favourite cake, only to find that it's not being made during this time'


what is love to you?

well, to me, love is not giving up when things get tough, when things aren't all a bed of roses, when it's giving more than taking.

giving up one's self for when it calls,
no excuses, no delays.
even when things don't seem to be in your favour,
compromise, let it pass, grow with it.

i once sang a song that said,

'i don't want just a memory, give me forever,
and don't even think about, saying goodbye,
cause i, just want one love, to be enough,
and remain in my heart till i die'

how naive i was. to think that it would all be ok just because there was love. just ONE love, would be enough.

stupid.

i don't think i'll ever see love the same way again.

EDIT

found a picture of the morning dress. not full length though.

myra and chui ee came for the wedding too. was really good seeing them again. tells me i'm not alone.

so tired...just got back from hospital. and i've got to wake up at 6 tomorrow morning. if this keeps up, i'll have eyebags down to my chin. then it'll be:

"STEP RIGHT UP FOLKS AND SEE THE WOMAN WITH THE CHIN-LONG EYEBAGS! A ONCE IN A LIFETIME OPPORTUNItY!

hey you boy! yes, you! don't you want to see this spectacular freak of nature? come on in! be astounded and amazed!"

i'm being an idiot...

this happens when i'm tired.