i am me

have been quite down in the dumps lately.

sorry.

i just don't have anything left in me that rejoices.

and i read that in all circumstances, we should give thanks, rejoice and celebrate.

i know that i have it easier than most people.

i know.

but sometimes it all just gets too much to handle all at once and cracks appear.

breakdowns occur.

the 'black dog' is weighing down.

but i must learn to rejoice.

i must learn to give thanks.

i must learn to trust.

teach me to trust in You, oh Lord.