i am me

i wish i could turn back the clock.
i wish i could have known who you were back then.
i wish i could have seen how wonderful you are.
i wish i could have been the right one for you.

i wish you didn't have to have your heart broken.
i wish i could mend it for you.
i wish i could make you have faith again.
i wish i could chase your darkness away.

~~~

feeling randomly emotional now.

got home at about 1am from uni last night. sigh, went through all the slides i'd done and realised half of them need to be restained. if not i won't be able to get good enough results for my thesis. so, double my work. and then my lecturer decided to make me do MORE work and added in something else for me to discover since it hasn't been done yet. so, again, i'm spearheading another project.

got home and was utterly exhausted. earlier on i had hit a dead end in my research. not enough money, not enough material, not enough time. needed a place to vent and decided to splurge my last RM3 credit calling tiger. vented out all my frustrations, cried as i was so tired and fed-up of hitting dead ends all the way.

but i sucked it all up and finished my work for the night and went home. showered and was about to collapse into bed when i thought,

'maybe i should call tiger. let him know i'm home.'

ring ring...

'hey...i'm home'

'i thought you would never call!'

'why?'

'cause i'm outside your house'

!!!!

'seriously??'

'yeah'

so i thought maybe he'd come to say goodnight. turns out he knew i was going to bed without anything to eat since lunch and had come to cook dinner for me. *cue melting heart* ok, so it was just maggi mee. but it was such a sweet gesture.

that's why i'm emo now