so here i am...in the land of sun, sea, sand, surf and STUDS. hahaha...that's according to my sister, LB. speaking of which, i'm really missing home. SO HOMESICK. i guess this is what happens when you leave home for the first time. away from loved ones, away from the comforts of home, away from the familiarity of routine life. in actually crying. like a freaking baby.
sigh...
i dunno how i'm going to survive the next 2 years. i always thought that i'd be tough. that 2 years was nothing, if but a breeze. and that i was gonna stay longer to work, etc, etc, etc. but right now, i'm not so sure anymore. i find myself thinking more and more about home and how much more i prefer it there. not just because it's comfortable and familiar, but because it's IN me. it kinda defines who i am today. i miss home.
sigh...
i think maybe, part of the reason why i'm feeling this way, is because i'm growing up. and honestly, i don't know if i'm ready for it. making my own decisions, being away from home, leading my own life. i don't know if i'm ready. you're probably thinking, 'wait a minute, you're almost 23. it's high time you get outta the house and experience life and all that it can give.' i know. i used to think that too.
sigh...
it's time to grow up, grace.
*but i still don't want to.
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